FULL MOON

I keep asking myself if I ever changed. I mean by means of growing up. What is like growing up during my childhood days? Well I am more of a rebel but no one in my family notices it. As matter of fact I started smoking and drinking when I was in my freshman years. I go home late since I was in junior. Maybe because there was no father image beside me back those days. Though I had the best grandma who disciplined me. My two loving uncles who taught me how to respect the others. Of course my great mom who was back then very strict but then supportive. She raised me with their help. As the first born granddaughter I can get what I want, but I was too spoiled and I learned how to steal money from them just to get what I wanted. I was so evil. I was a brat!

But back when I was a child, I wasn’t just living a brat for all of those days. I never wanted to be courted by boys like my age. I throw away flowers that they gave me. I never wanted to play with poor kids, look how mean I am. I don’t want to be kissed by some old guys, it feels eewy! Haha! I like wearing my favorite dress over and over again, even wearing my favorite shoe wear every single day. When I was younger I like rambutan so much, my most favorite fruit was Watermelon/ Melon. I love jelly ace so much! I love watching Disney channel. I love reading fairytales and imagining myself that I am one of those princess in the storybook. I had my first cell phone when I was in grade 5 I think, I keep changing my phone back then because my uncle was a Smart telecommunication dealer. Cool right? Haha I used to have my own diary, I had two small notebooks with locks. Small one when I was in my junior days and another one when I was in High school. I love hanging out in our roof top, when I was being scolded I go up and just watch the stars. That’s the time when I fell in love with the moon.

When I look up on it, I feel so relieved especially back then when I was being scolded. The last time I remember that I hang out with the moon when my uncle slap me on my face because they were all fighting and I was there to defend my mom and it just happened he slap me, that was my first time someone laid his hands on my face. Slap attack! Lol Oh well the full moon keeps reminding about all these things, but it doesn’t mean every time I look at it I am hurting. I am so relieved seeing how beautiful it is from a far.

Jewel's original
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